3/4th Old

I cannot believe it, but we have a NINE month old!  The holidays were so fun with her minus the fact that she literally tried to pull the Christmas tree on top of herself at least 56 times. I cannot wait until next year when she gets what is going on somewhat.  We were all around the world (U.S.) and back again. Denver for a week, KC for the holidays, Dallas for NYE!   We needed a quick breather hence my hiatus!

IMG_2311Current Berkley favorites:

  • Mamamama ALLLL DAY LONG. I think Mama to her means “I want” and/or “hold me”
  • Her obsession with the mobile that hangs over her changing table.  It has all different strings that dangle down and her mission in life is to catch one.  If she gets one in each hand- the look of accomplishment on her face is so hilarious.  In addition she literally GASPS (really dramatically for a really long time).  I have got to get this on video STAT.
  • She has figured out the stairs- she can book it up them if she wants. Not sure this is my favorite thing but definitely a new trick for sure!
  • She still doesn’t want to hold her own bottle- which I don’t mind!
  • I’ve started to tell her no.  Sometimes I make the sound “ah-ah” instead of no.  It literally makes her belly laugh at me.  Its really hard – actually impossible to keep a straight face.  Last week she was in the cart at Target and she kept trying to put the buckle in her mouth. I kept saying gross and “ah-ah”. She was laughing probably the hardest I have heard her laugh so far.  I was dying.  This whole discipline thing should go well….

IMG_2232First Christmas Recap– just a tad belated. We went and saw Santa Christmas Eve at Crown Center where the real santa is. At least that’s what my mom always told us growing up. It gets confusing how Santa can be everywhere at once. So the real Santa is at Crown Center and all of his helpers are the others that you see around town 😉  She was fearless. Actually she just wanted to eat his beard & then the tassel on his hat. It was so much fun and she did great.   We did Christmas with both sides of the families and loved being able to spend the night at our own house – get away from the madness some!  KC does Christmas really well.  I loved being here for the holidays.  Only 347 days until Christmas 2016! #letthecountdownbegin

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KC vs. Denver

We are coming up on 3 months of life in Kansas City. Life is going well as far as living here but I have been so homesick for Colorado.  I didn’t realize it until we lived here, but I actually do feel like Denver is “home”. I literally could cry about it while typing this post (and I have had multiple cry-seshes about it).    Here are some differences that I notice in day to day life (other than not seeing mountains daily) 😉

Recycling. Denver makes it so easy. They take glass, there are recycle & trash cans everywhere. I was rarely in a place where I had to throw a water bottle in the trash.  I loved this.   In our Kansas City home we recycle and we recycle glass. The glass recycling is through a different company and we manually drop it every 2 weeks which works for us, but sadly I would assume not many KC peeps actually take the time to do this.

Daycare.  We have a nanny for Berkley that has been excellent! But while I was looking for options I toured several day cares.  All were a lot less per month than Denver, but had crazy waiting lists!! So win/lose I guess.  The daycare we had chose in Denver was hella expensive but offered organic food.  I will absolutely pay more for an organic menu.  Adam and I care a lot about the food that we eat and the food we put into Berkley’s body. I haven’t found that here (yet). Hoping there is some childcare center out there that offers this.

The “buzz”. This one is hard to describe but something Adam and I have talked about a few times.  The buzz was real and alive when the Royals were in the World Series.  The city was alive and it was so fun to be here!  But now it has kind of died. People are back to their day to day.  Denver…. “the buzz” is real.  People LOVE living there. They are active and out and about all the time.  Any week night we could walk to a local brewery and it would be packed with not only adults but babies, strollers and dogs.  We SO miss this.  Maybe I just haven’t found it yet.

Church. Good churches galore in Kansas City. Denver had great churches as well. The main difference is so many of my friends here go to church!  Its more of a thing you do on Sundays here and I really like that.  Lots of grounded families here.

Crime. I can only talk about this pulling from my experiences so far.  We lived in a city neighborhood in Denver.  Your garage would get “tagged”, our scooter got stollen.  Packages would get picked up off your porch if you didn’t pull them in, etc.  In our current neighborhood, there has been 2 armed robberies & a homicide all less than a mile away since we have lived here.  Holy sh*t.  That is a whole other level of crime.  Thank goodness we have an awesome alarm system.  And we live in a pretty nice area so this has just been surprising!

As you can probably tell.  I really miss Denver. I am still adjusting to life here.  Ideally, we would like to live in both places which I think we could swing (maybe by a condo in Denver)? It’s just so challenging when you think about the childcare situation…  And from reading this post, maybe I am a hippie and didn’t realize it until now 🙂  One thing we LOVE is our actual house.  I will be posting pics soon!!


Berkley Ann’s First 6 Months

This baby girl. This crisp but beautiful night. Thank you to Alison Moore Photography for so many great pictures- these are just a few of my favorites!  Berkley is 7 months old now, but I want to take a second to talk about our first 6 months.
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I cannot believe you are almost 7 months old! All of the sudden you are looking more like a little girl and you are closer to being 1 years old than you are to being a newborn. This is so bittersweet as we have so much to look forwards to, but at the same time, you have been the most snuggly, cute newborn and I have loved every second of figuring out how to be a mom the past 6 months.  Before time gets away from us I want to dedicate this post to you and talk about what has happened since your birthday.View More: http://alisonmoorephotography.pass.us/berkley1Your birth was easy- thank you for that 🙂 Once you were here, my life got better.  It’s actually funny because I think I slept better once you were born. All of the anxious nights I had waiting for you were no longer a part of me since I had you officially in my arms.   I was on cloud 9 for the first few weeks. I had this crazy amount of energy and felt like I was bouncing while I walked around with you.  It was so surreal. I cooked & cleaned & felt invincible (for all of those thinking I am crazy- just keep reading).  We were so careful as we gave you your first bath.  I think there were like 4 people involved in that task 🙂 You actually slept great too when you came home from the hospital. There were a few nights you slept like 7 hours at night! It probably wasn’t good for mom’s milk supply but I didn’t really think about that at the time.   Dad got to stay home for about 2 weeks with us before heading back to work and both of your grandmas & grandpas and all of your aunts took turns coming out to see you. We took daily walks with Tyson up to the dog park and watched every episode of “The Office”.  We had TONS of visitors! Everyone was so anxious to meet you.  The amount of clothes you received as gifts was crazy- I could have dressed triplets with your wardrobe.

View More: http://alisonmoorephotography.pass.us/berkley1About 1 month into your life, mom hit a wall.  GMa had come into Denver to see you and that day I felt like I was going to pass out multiple times.  I think that adrenaline rush that I had going strong for 4 weeks finally came to an end and reality set in.  Getting up every few hours at night is actually hard after so many weeks on end! GMa timed her visit right which gave me the opportunity to take some naps and catch up on rest.  It was MUCH needed.  Your first trip was at 6 weeks old.  We drove back to Kansas City for Aunt Kayley’s bachelorette party at the Lake of the Ozarks & you went to cousin Julie’s wedding.  You were a champ on the drive- thank goodness because as I am writing this post you have made the drive from either Denver to KC or KC to Denver 5 times so far!

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At 2 months, you weren’t gaining weight. You had dropped into the 1st percentile for weight and we had to start adding formula into your diet.  Mom had a VERY hard time with this but once we did it, you were so much happier and you became a pretty easy baby.   I was dreading going back to work and we decided that we really missed having our families around. In July, we made the decision to move back to Kansas City in early September.  We drove back to Kansas City, shopped for houses and you attended Kayley’s wedding.  You were still so tiny and it took forever to find a dress small enough to fit you!! Also, you hair had almost all fallen out by the wedding 🙂

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I ended up going back to work part time so I could spend some more time with you.  You were rolling over both ways by about 4 months and sleeping on and off through the night.

We moved to Kansas City when you were exactly 5 months old.  I bawled my eyes out.  It was so hard to leave our friends, the city we love, your birthplace, your brother’s birthplace and leave our future babies (who are in storage there).  But family first.  I want you to grow up around your grandparents.  View More: http://alisonmoorephotography.pass.us/berkley1

You have turned into the most smiley, easy going baby.  You are ALWAYS on the move.  You have been active since you were in my belly. You love to be tossed around by us – I think you are going to be a roller coaster lover one day.  You have no fear of strangers and will go to anyone.  Every time I drop you at Nanny Lauren’s house I look back to see if there is any ounce of sadness there?! None that I can tell so far. You just love being around people!

We love you so much. You bring so much JOY into our lives.  We are so thankful for each day we get to spend with you, sweet girl.





October Run Down

Well HELLO there!  October came and went and I had little to no time to write and keep up on here.  Sorry, Y’all 🙂  Here is my quick October run-down and a glimpse into what is going on with our lives .

MOVING! Still… kitchen cabinets got painted (white, of course). Walls are being painted, things are slowing coming together. I’ll put up some house pictures soon!!

WORKING! Not as exciting, but equally-if not more- exhausting. I have been SO busy. By the time I get home at night I am just brain fried.

ROYALS! World Series champs… NBD.  KC is buzzing and I am so excited but SO tired from those late-night games.  The last time we won in 1985 (my birth year).

Berkley 10/31/2015 & me (about 8 months) in 1985.

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BERKLEY!!!! My funny, adorable, snuggly, expressive 6 (almost 7) month old.  She was sick, sick, sick 2 weeks ago (fever, puking, etc.). It. was. terrible. And Adam and I didn’t get any sleep for pretty much a week straight.  She is all better now, but wow- being a parent was pretty tough there for a few days.

Honestly, I love writing and I love this blog. I am just having a really tough time finding my voice on here. It’s a very strange place to be after going through so much heart ache and now having so much joy.   October 15 was Infant & Pregnancy Loss Remembrance Day.  I was supposed to go to a group that night but Adam was traveling and we were staying with my in-laws while the cabinets were getting painted. It was just one of those days that was crazy and I couldn’t make it.  A very awesome gal (who has also gone through a lot- and is still very much in it) lit a candle for Cade.  It was so thoughtful.

“Celebrating the lives of our children who reign in glory”



4 months and loving life!

Berkley is just over 4 months old!  We are having so much fun with her.  Give me a 4 month old any day- this is definitely my favorite age so far.

Berkley loves to smile, gasp, be outside and put everything in her mouth.  At her 4 month appointment she was the 29th percentile for weight (whoop!) and 70th for height. I am trying to soak it all in – thank you Lord for this precious baby girl.

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Berkley’s Newborn Shoot

Just about 3 months late & long overdue… but I am obsessed with how Berkley’s newborn pics turned out and thought it was past time I shared them!  I think they capture our little family perfectly. Thank you to Rachael Wooten Photography!

**My newborn with a full head of hair has quickly turned into an almost bald soon-to-be 4 month old**

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On infant formula

Sadly, my milk supply still hasn’t increased even though I have been working my a** off.  I have been supplementing with formula or pumped milk since her 2 month doctor’s appointment and overall we have a very happy little girl that is gaining weight and finally has a thigh roll 🙂  This post is to share some knowledge over formula, what I give Berkley and our experience with it so far.

Prior to any milk supply problems I had read up on formula by chance. More out of curiosity than anything… but I am a researcher and I like to be informed.    To give you some background, my husband and I are pretty health-conscience.  We really care about what we eat & where it is sourced from.  We care about animal treatment and will pay more for food that we know is higher quality.  And we don’t trust the US food system all of the time. You can only watch so many documentaries to know that we have major issues in the US when it comes to our food.  So I am a skeptic to begin with.

The first article I read was a Food Babe article over formula.  The thing that bothered me about what I read was that it only compared organic US brands and there were still so many things “wrong” with the formula.  Synthetic preservatives, palm oil, etc.

From the Food Babe article:

“I will only cover organic formula, and I hope that readers will understand that while there are many problems in this segment of the organic industry, organic formula is still a far better choice than conventional formula, with its genetically engineered ingredients (GMOs), milk from cows that were likely treated with antibiotics or artificial growth hormones, and oils that were processed with the use of neurotoxic solvents like hexane.  Major ingredients in conventional formula are derived from crops that were sprayed with harmful pesticides and herbicides in the field and likely fumigated in storage.”

My head was spinning after going through this article.  But at this point, it didn’t even cross my mind that I would need to start giving Berkley formula sooner than later.  Fast forward to her 2 month appointment and the #milksupplyprobs that I shared and all of the sudden I needed to give B formula.  The first thing I did was order some Honest Company Organic Formula. Using the Food Babe article, I went through every single ingredient and decided it looked pretty good, all things considered.  I liked the fact that the first ingredient was actual organic milk vs. some sort of sugar product- which is the first ingredient on most formulas, sadly.

After ordering and trying this formula (Berkley took it just fine. I didn’t notice any tummy issues) I did even more research and came across this article on Gimmethegoodstuff which lead me to the discovery of Holle Infant formula out of Germany… which is pretty much as good as it gets when it comes to formula in regards to quality & safety.  By this point, it was clear that I would be giving Berkley much more formula then planned, therefore, I have since then been ordering Holle through Little World Organics– Berkley loves it.  The biggest difference I have noticed in this formula is actually in her poos which are now very close to breastmilk poos even though she gets a good amount of formula per day (sorry Berkley for publicly blogging about your bowel movements).

I think as consumers often times we assume that the food we eat is safe if it is sold in the grocery stores. And you would assume that infant formula is especially safe & has the highest of quality standards.  Sadly that isn’t always true.  I know every mom just does they best they can do with the information they are given and it is overwhelming to literally put in the time and energy to research every-little-thing (and try to get some sleep!).    I felt compelled to spread the word, especially if you are using formula.  I know up until 2 months ago I was completely in the dark and it was just by-chance that I stumbled across these above articles.  Sharing is caring and I care a lot about you and your babies.  Maybe I will start a formula company one day 🙂

I promise my next post will be more fun!



KC here we come!

We are moving to Kansas City!  There I said it.  It is sooooo bittersweet, but things are in motion – our relator put the “coming soon” sign in our yard today.  I really can’t believe it and it doesn’t seem real yet.  A year ago I swore I would never live in KC again and here I am… moving back.  Never say never!

I went back to work part time last week and will be working remote (T, W, Th). Adam’s job is what set this wheel in motion. He manages a remote team, so he can really work from anywhere.  We are so excited to be closer to family.  After what we have been through, family really trumps everything else and we want Berkley to be around family all the time.

We are so excited to try something new.  Thinking of this like an adventure although I am very nervous because we LOVE Denver.  But we can always move back, right?